1, 2, THREE!
Alright. So as the heading states, I've been ill. Two weeks ago it was a horrific cold/flu virus that produced entirely too many bodily byproducts out of my nose. That lasted...oh...about ten days.
Right on the heels of that I came down with a plugged milk duct. Ouch. No good. And if you don't get that taken care of, it can mess up your ability to breastfeed permanently. Babiest Boy doesn't get enough with the two he has, can you imagine if production won't down to one?
And this week, a bladder infection. Listen folks, I'm tired. And I keep pushing myself like I'm strong and stuff. And really, I'm just really, really tired. I took yesterday off of work because the antibiotic hadn't yet improved the infection. I spent a full day telling myself *not* to feel guilty about taking time out for my body to rest.
My question is: Uh, when did I turn into such a martyr? Seriously, I think it's time I get over myself and stop trying to be so damned strong. I wasn't perfect during this time, far from it. The kids were still (sigh) late for school (damn missing sock bin), dinner was still late, and the living room was still messy with school papers and such. I'm definitely not Supermom, and will probably never become Supermom. But don't cry for me Internet World, I'm okay with being Good-Enough-Mom. Good enough is a beautiful thing. It implies moderation, which is to only experience the goodness without going too far to either extreme.
So I'm not going to play the "The one who pushes through her pain and fatigue" anymore. I'm not going to be push myself to be so damn strong. Because, as it turns out, it just makes me weak.


